Stupidity At Its Highest Level~

165 600 minutes...115 days..

That's how long I've been living in a dream....more like deluded fantasy..I think it's because my signal receptor has been faulty all these while..so it was like while I thought there was something going on..in reality what's going on is actually nothing....

So now I'm actually listening to my own self and really am going to stop fantasizing...and really start living life as it was meant to be lived! I've already wasted 165 600 minutes...I can't afford to waste any more....

* I can see clearly now..the rain has gone~*

So sem exams are creeping upon us...actually I shouldn't use creeping..it's more like it's coming at us with a velocity of a speeding bullet shot out of an AK-47!!! Another 20++ days till the D-day..if I don't do well..I can kiss my applications goodbye.....but the main problem is.........Should I seriously go for the course I wanted since I was 15 years old??? Cacat lar~~

Anyway...It's hard to be psyched up about it when lecturers keep bring morality down by announcing how hard the papers gonna be...how we are gonna fail all the time...makes you wanna go bash your head against the wall..repeatedly...

So I'm off to commit cerebral infraction..and I will keep you guys updated..when I have the energy again...

Searching for a Desert Eagle..

Jean~ 

Curl Up In Bed~

Just finished the moral finals....the paper was........GAH! No Comments...

The weather right now is just right for sleeping..(rain with a bit of wind)..without meaning to...I fell asleep the moment I came back from classes...and probably I wouldn't have woken up at all if my mom didn't call me to come down for dinner....

Just so tired......

I think it's probably the fact that I don't sleep at night...

OK! Fine I admit..I don't sleep regularly..sheesh..my mom has to stop lecturing me on my sleeping patterns..and STOP bringing up that guy who died prematurely as the result of lack of sleep...she keeps shooting me a death glare and saying ominous things like 'if you don't take care of yourself you're going to suffer..etc etc etc' 'If you don't take your USANA regularly you're going to regret..etc etc etc"

*Sometimes tears say all there is to say..Sometimes your first scars won't ever fade...away...*

Been having problems with my phone recently..FG and Co has been asking me if I had changed numbers..as if I'd let go of my superbly wonderful amazing number...and use some boring Maxis number (been planning to switch service provider..if I do I'd probably retain my number also)...Anyway..sorry guys! It's just that 1st the Nokia has been giving me problems..it's now on it's way to the hospital for broken phones..and 2nd...I dropped my SIM card into the crack of the car seat today!!!! ><

I was exchanging phones in the car when my dad hit the brakes..and the SIM card slipped from my grasp and went down down down down into the cracks of the car seat..you know the little space between the seatbelt and the cup compartment in most cars....

SHIT!

But thankfully my wonderful dad took it out for me..it's now safely inserted into the other phone..phew

Back in action soon...

Jean~

Crackers Are Yummy~

Anyway....today my mom was overly ambitious..since tomorrow's the day that my bro will leave for his grad trip...she decided to make lamb chop for dinner..HOWEVER...she got stuck in Subang running a errand..so she asked me to take over chef duties for the night..I think she had BLIND FAITH in my cooking skills which up to date..can only be used if I have to cook for myself...

Cooking for yourself is easy cause..no matter how cacat the dish turns out..you're still gonna eat it..cooking for the family on the other hand..is somewhat daunting...as you can't serve them undercooked meat..

So I was supposed to cook lamb in a freaking oven...omg...it's something I'd expect people from AFC to do..not me.....So with much trepidation...I 'baked' the lamb...and

It turned out surprisingly tasty!! =)

OM NOM NOM..nicest dinner..cause it was partly the taste of SUCCESS!!

*First of the gang with a gun in his hand  and the first to do time the first of the gang to die*

Anyway..tomorrow's the freaking moral finals...and I'm not remotely in the examination mood at all...Heck I'm even blogging....to put it in the wise words of my friend.. ' It's so  freaWUEGHIUGHEBking loong man'...which is true...the scope is 6 chapters long..and reading the textbook is like wading through this sea of words..none of them which makes sense.....@@!! Anyway..I don't think it takes much to pass..so hope I do pass! Not looking forward to retaking it again!

So many things..so little words..

It's funny how the English language doesn't have the words I need to express myself since I'm all jumbled up inside in the 1st place....

GAH! MORAL!

Last note : whoever told me drinking water can stave off the effects of alcohol should own up now and let me shoot them...shouldn't have drank anything for dinner..

GAH!

Slightly cuckoo...

Jean~

Brain Infarction~

I think I may have morphed into Monica Geller for one night...

In case you don't who's Monica Geller....

Taadah!

Third one from the left

Descriptions of her included things like..neurotic..with an obsession for cleaning....This is what happened to me late at night..or more like..waaaay early in the morning..

I was busily doing my own business..when I noticed that my bidet holder is stained..so I took a toothbrush and began scrubbing it...seriously..it was 1 am in the morning..and I am holding a toothbrush and cleaning my toilet.......I opened up all my drain covers and began scrubbing them..then I progressed to cleaning my shower screen...my shower head...the only thing I left untouched was probably the toilet bowl..as I'm not going to use a toothbrush to clean that...

When I finished it was probably close to 2.30 am...and I actually went to sleep...feeling happy..for CLEANING!!

I'm morphing into MONICA!!

Anyway...HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to my lovely mom!! <3~!!

It's a song by Namwee..I borrowed it from him...and dedicate it also to my mom..since she says I always don't listen to her...swt...

Her favourite quote to me " Even when I tell you in front of you there's this big drain you'll want to walk into it then you'll tell me there's a big drain over there!!"

Sorry mom..that's me I guess..

Love you lots..and Happy Mother's Day once again! =)

No title required..just blog!

Some people are just like sodium and water...some people are just like magnesium and cold water...others are....noble gases and water...

Anyway..that was just random.....I made that one up while talking to friends...haha

So yeah...went through nearly the whole day already without any major glitches except the part where my dad was really sarcastically pointing out one place to me...and saying that place was where the KTM station was located...then my cute bro (who didn't know what was going on ) asked "huh? why you all wanna know?" to which my dad replied " your sister lar! want to take KTM home but dunno where is the station!"

@@...sounds like he's beyond mad...omg....

I think I should just bury myself six feet under...

Anyways..short post before heading out...

You put the beautiful in life.

Ciao~

Jean

FOOTNOTES: sometimes you need brothers to put your life into perspective...like today...

Conversation at a ban mien stall...

Bro: " Jean, what colour is your hair?"

Me: " Haha..faded already..supposed to be brown"

Bro: " More like MUD BROWN"

Next conversation at a departmental store

Bro (talking to my sis) : " I pity whoever is your jie jie's boyfriend..not only is he stuck with her..he has to wear all her bad taste clothing..."

Gosh..I love my bro..I'll buy him all the 'bad taste clothing'!!! HAHA!!!!

Deep shit...

What is it like waiting for the other shoe to drop? The moments when you can't be sure it's gonna happen..Just like me hoping that my parents don't find out about yesterday...but things never go according to what you wish for and like Murphy's law stats "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong"...and this time it went Effing wrong...

This morning I went down for a relatively normal breakfast..my mom was asking about my day before and why I was so tired the other night..

Then after questioning me about my day..she asked 'Have you got anything else to tell me?"

DAMN! I hate it when she uses that phrase...it's because every time every single bloody time~~~ when she does that she has already found out what I did wrong and she's just waiting for me to `fess up to her...

So unwisely I told her 'nope.. I have nothing else I want to tell you.." 

BIG MISTAKE..cause you see she has found out of my rendezvous yesterday...since I didn't close my blog..and boy was she mad..

She really literally blew her top..at 9 am in the morning both of us were raising voices across the dining table..it was WWW3 again...she kept on going on about how I breached her trust (which I did ) and how that I was irresponsible for not telling her about what I did..

HOW TO TELL HER!!! omg..If I tell her about what I did..she's gonna blow up anyway..If I don't tell her what I did..no one will be the wiser and life can go on...but the problem with her is..she expects me to tell her everything and sometimes I find that..little things she don't know won't kill her..esp my life during junior years at HH....

Actually the whole scenario was that I'm supposed to be following A back from college on this particular Friday as my parents were going down Singapore..but I forgot about it until Thursday..prior to that my mom and I already had an argument about this carpooling arrangement..she always says I inform people at the last minute and that one day if I get into trouble she's gonna really give me a lecture...So anyway A has to visit her grandmother on Fridays..and I didn't want to tell my mom about that, my mom just assumed I could follow because the last 2 Fridays I've been sitting her car back, so I just went to college as usual....when it came to going back..I really did call everyone I know and since there were no alternatives..I took the public transportation home...

WHAT'S SO EFFING WRONG ABOUT THAT!!

Apparently..my mom told me that I should have sms-ed her even while she's in SINGAPORE! so that she can find a solution for ME!!! In case she doesn't know I told her " Mom I'm freaking 18..I can find solutions to my own problems!"...to which she retorted that I'm not really independent yet and I can't make decisions on my own and while I'm still living in UAH's house I have to play by THEIR rules...she keeps stressing that being 18 doesn't make me a adult and doesn't mean that I can make decisions like this by myself...

And right now I'm just waiting to see how my dad's going to judge me which is a hundred times worse that what my mom can ever do...

Sometimes...I feel like I really am being restricted...I'm always inside the house all the time...they always worry that I might be kidnapped..raped..murder...etc etc...they CUT OUT newspaper clippings TO WARN ME....that's how afraid they are...

Don't get me wrong I love them and I know they love me too ( otherwise why are they so chiong hei?) but I just wish sometimes..just sometimes!! I can be like the 'other kids'..the ones where their parents are cool with letting them go out..letting them go sleepovers...letting them visit friend's houses...etc...I just wish sometimes..they'll lighten up a little...

My parents always say that I'm not mature enough..and when I'm just about to redeem myself in their eyes..I go and do something stupid to put myself back into their black list again....so frustrating....

Parents are some people you can't live with and you can't live without~

Signing off cause too emo to write anything sensible..

Jean~

New experiences~

Let's put today in one word shall we?

TIRING!

Ok..one word isn't enough...

TIRING but FUN!!

Today my parents left me at home with my sis and since my sis only comes back from school at around 5++pm..I have the whole house to myself for around 4 hours..Ideally it should have been like this but since I have no transport back..I sorta let loose and hung around Subang for the few hours..

So Y J and I all went over to J's place to crash for awhile (since our movie plan to Pyramid was busted)...we were there having a great time watching Orphan and getting freaked out...the funniest part was Y kept swearing and J kept reprimanding her for swearing since her bro was with us..(she didn't want him picking up all the bad influences!) Then we progressively moved on to just chillaxing UNTIL..

*cue dramatic music!*

Y merosakkan her hard drive..I also dunno how she did it..but she managed to disconnect the USB port from the hard drive..then there was this moment of panic as we ( Y and I) rushed over to Parade to try to get it fixed...but since THAT didn't work out..I'll bet she's gonna `fess up to her dad...fingers crossed babe!

Then I decided to go home using public transportation...I.E. KTM!! and TAXI!! HOMG!!! We unwisely met the rush hour crowd head on while taking the KTM..and I tell you it was a bloody nightmare just trying to stand inside the commuter..we were packed like some sort of canned food!! and uncomfortably pressed up against the door..I bet the back of my head picked up close to a GAZILLION germs in the commuter..

After the ride..I exited the station into this unfamiliar place..I swear..I really mean cross my heart and hope to die kind of swear that I never even seen the place in my life..I really was about to cry when I couldn't recognise the place..that feeling of fear was kinda overwhelming..so I turned to the best alternative...

TAXIS!!!! I saw this whole line of them..so I randomly chose one and said "Bukit Rimau" to him..and the next thing I know I'm speeding off home...

YEAH RIGHT!!

I was caught in this effing jam for 20 mins!! AND the meter was running for that whole 20 mins! In the end I had to pay RM 20 for the cab fare...omg...

But the cab driver was friendly and he chatted a lot..he has some chinese blood in him(apparently his grandpa was a Hong Kee) and we were talking bout all sorts of things..like the outrageous mamak prices....the inefficient government staff...his past jobs (bar-tending..catering...)..the youths of today and their bad habits...hit and run drivers and various other topics....=) Non stop until he pulled up at my driveway...(apparently he knows Abu Bakar..LMAO!

All in all it was the most expensive convo I ever had..RM20...there goes the bracelet I've been saving up for..oh well..

Anyway I did learn a few things today

1) NEVER ever! cross the road with Y and J and for the record..babymonkey too....

2) Being the only 18 year old makes you act like a grandma...(><)

3) Don't ever ever ever ever take the KTM if you're not sure where you're gonna exit...It was really traumatising....

4) BRING ENOUGH CASH!!! I nearly didn't have enough for the taxi....Speaking of taxis..taking one alone was scary too....................................

5) Never ever ever ever ever go behind parents' back to do something you really wanna do...though crashing in on someone else's pad was cool and all...I didn't think that was the right thing to do....oh well..sorry my lovely parents...><

Opening up to new experiences! (even though they aren't necessarily good ones!)

JEAN!!!